Tuesday, December 12, 2006


It's been a while..the internet hasn't been working in school and all that. lots been happening and I'm still trying to catch up!my birthday was on thursday turned 17 YAY! came back to london yeasterday and today I'm going to Lagos!
It was quite hectic in school trying to finish up all my work a week earlier than others but it was all worth it cuz by Gods grace tommorrow I'll be basking in the Nigerian sun.

For the first time in my life I got a little tipsy (note: not drunk just tipsy)thanks to my lovely friends that took me out to dinner on my birhtday. They kept offering me more and more wine and me too I kept drinking it.After us lot drinking too much wine we started singing on the streets before we headed the play ground.T'was quite fun and very giggly.

I'm happy I've left school for a bit cuz my horizons have been quite limited and short sighted.That's the reason I started fancying one guy, that outside school I would not even think twice about.....Okay I might look twice cuz this guy is FIT! but I won't think too much bout him. He was the one I said was giving me mixed signals in my previous post.But now I honestly think I'm over him cuz I just can't work him out. One minute, he's all over me and I'm thinking the guy is feeling me. The next time, he's just acting all cool and distant.So I've decided he probably just likes me as I friend and I think I was just confused, I don't really like him its just...ot uf a limited number he's the most faciable guy to me.However, I'm sure if I see more eye candy I'll totally forget all about him cuz I so do not want to be thinking about one guy dat does not even ja me face!

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

45 Random stuff about me!!!

I've finally gotten round to doing one of these memes. Everytime I try to do one it always looks like so much work but anyhoo here goes

Whats your name spelt backwards?:) awit! see,even with my name spelt backwards I'm still a wit…lol
What did you do last night?: Had a spanish lesson and watched team America.
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?:I don’t remember
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?: What!! who does that? not me!
Last time you swam in a pool?: I dont even remember...i think like 5 years ago
What are you wearing?: white top, green cardigan,jeans,white trainers…(yup repping naija green ,white ,green)
How many cars have you owned?: Well, let me see ..first I had the rolls, then the jaguar and I just got the that’s 3 not bad eh?…..(na beans!)
Type of music you dislike most?: hardcore metal..argh its just a load of noise
Are you registered to vote?: nope..under 18s not allowed.that law should be ammended. 16 yr olds are allowed to go into the army and be killed but they can't vote for their leaders.
Do you have cable?: I don’t think I can survive without it
What kind of computer do you use?: It is written on the computer i'm using right now ;LG
Ever made a prank phone call?:yup! those things are fun ..there was even a time we called this number and a guy picked it up. told him I was a unilag chick and we'd met before, the guy was too happy he thought he had struck gold..he was like his wife was with him at that time so he couldn't talk but that he'll be coming to my school this evening to pick me up , that I should give him my name and the name of my hall. Can you imagine the shameless man, he was old enough to be my father Oh! Useless man but that was a good laugh
You like anyone right now?: yess! and its so frustrating cuz the guy is just giving me mixed signals!
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: God forbid! bungee what!
Furthest place you ever traveled?: Nigeria to london
What's your favorite comic strip?: don’t read ‘em
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?: Yup, after singing that naija national anthem everyday on assembly ground in school..
Shower, morning or night?: mornings and sometimes both
Best movie you've seen in the past month?: Casino royale..that movie was too bunz.. the guy isn’t that fine but he was really cool
Favorite pizza toppings?: chicken and sweetcorn with peperronni...yummy
Chips or popcorn?: chips!
What cell phone provider do you have?: Tmobile
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?:peanut shell!!! no oh!
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?:yup in school and i'm proud to say I won
Orange Juice or apple?: orange
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?: couple of friends!
Favorite chocolate bar?: Dat one is hard oh!but its between kit kat,snickers,toblerone and bounty

Who is your longest friend and how long?: my longest friend is a sweet heart and its been 6 yrs

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: Don't think so
Have you ever won a trophy?: got one in pry school for coming first in a race
Favorite arcade game?: dont know what games they have in the arcade.. do they have tetris in the arcade?
Ever ordered from an infomercial?: Nope!
Sprite or 7-UP?: aren't they the same?
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?: yup to school.
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?: I dont think they have that shop where I'm located

Ever thrown up in public?: thankfully not!

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?:)finding true cant beat that!

Do you believe in love at first sight?: i believe in instant attraction at first sight not love

SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?: they're both very stupid

Did you have long hair as a young kid?: Nope. used to cut my hair and i remember the first time I cut my hair in pry school, my teacher kept going on about how I was now the smartest kid in her class cuz I had my hair cut...?don't ask ME why!

What message is on your voicemail machine:"hello..hello..heeelloo..whos this?.. Why're you calling? .. im' not here right now.. so drop a message .I'll holla back, bye!"

Where would you like to go right now?: To lagos!

What’s the name of your pet?: Don’t have any pets

What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?: don’t carry a backpack, but I’ve got hand cream, usb cable,pack of tissue, pencil case, one huge text book and a couple of notes, vaseline, a mirror , purse and loads of receipts

What do you think about most?: How the hell I'm gonna do all my school work in so little time!
{I tag anybody who reads this!)

Monday, November 20, 2006

Home sweet home.. no more cold

Mehn! I'm literally counting the days till I go back to naija.I've only been away for a year yet it feels like millions of years.Christams is gonna be so fun! All my family people are going to be there and we're going to seriously rock lagos!!I just hope everything goes according to plan because this one I've started making mouth...I've not even bought my ticket yet but mumsy says I should not worry...i'm not worrying but hmm.... me I must sha go to lagos this christmas!

Last year's christmas was so shite! Everyone's like "Oh!christmas is coming" and the houses are all lit up and everything seems to be getting ready for a climax on christmas day... On the so called christmas day everything is so boring,you just sit in your house and eat your christmas turkey. You can't even go out for the fear that you will die of cold! Talking about the cold, yesterday was horrible. I went on a school shopping trip to manchester.Typical me, I walked round the mall till my feet were sore and I had seen all the seeables and bought all the buyables.Anyway,I was looking forward to getting back, having dinner and completing my course work. All for the bus to break down on the way back to school and we had to stand outside in the cold. We couldn't stay in the bus because of one safety issue like that..we could get hit by a car while we were in the bus or the car could explode,oyinbos and their safety issues, if it was in naija even if the car is bringing out smoke they will still be in the car and be like "explode ko..explode ni.. wo! just buy pure water and pour it inside and lets be going"..oh bless them! Anyway, the getting out of the car didn't make it any better because we could have also died in the cold they told us to stand in. When we thought it couldn't get any worse, it now started raining..mehn! it was so not funny! we stood there waiting for AA to come for almost an hour! At one point I had to start laughing cuz if not I would have cried plus we were squeezed together in one big circle trying to stay warm and we all looked like penguins! Not long now'll soon be in the warm climate of nigeria and then you'll be complaining of the heat.

Nyways, all you people spending your christmas in jand pele Oh! while you're eating your christmas turkey , I'll be eating some efo! don't let me rub it in too much! bye!

Sunday, November 19, 2006

What's it gonna be?

I've always had perfect eyesight, my grandmother is 64 and she doesn't use glasses. So how come at this young age I cant see properly again. I’m so pissed of at this and although in sec. school I always wanted to wear glasses, now the thought of it is horrible. I guess I can use contact lenses but the thought of poking myself in the eye everyday that's even worse! Sigh.

In school, we're doing a work experience thing were we have to find work placements for a week in a place in line with what we want to become. That is a major problem for me because I don’t know what that is. I guess I have an idea...more like i have lots of ideas of what I want to be. I’ve wanted to be so many things in my life. When I was younger I wanted to be a singer and I used to sing everywhere I went. After that, I wanted to become a lawyer, cuz everyone was always saying I’d make a good lawyer as I used to argue a lot with everyone about random stuff. Then in Jss1, I wanted to be a cardiologist.... I don’t even know why, I guess cuz the name sounded fancy. Then, I wanted to be an accountant or just a businesswoman who wore proper corporate clothes and worked in a big company. The idea of becoming an accountant went squash when I found out that accounting is the most boring thing I could ever do, I barely passed it my WAEC. Now, I think I want to be a corporate lawyer but I'm not very sure about that now cuz it doesn't sound very interesting and I still want to be a model/singer (although these are dream as a result of watching to much Britain’s next top model and X-factor!). I really need to sort this out.

All my aunties are always asking " so tiwa what are you going to study in uni?" "What do you want to be in future?" most of the time I always just say something random like " Oh! I want to be a pilot" or "I'm going to study engineering" blah blah but that’s only to save face cuz I don't want the "You have to know what you want to be" lecture as if I don’t know that already. Sometimes I think I don't really have to worry I can just study anything and in future hopefully I marry a rich guy and I don’t have work hard for money, I'll just have a shop to keep me busy. But I know that’s not a good plan what if the rich husband doesn't surface? I'll have to struggle for the rest of my life. I want to get a degree and get a really good job so I don’t have to struggle like that.

Anyway, I've yarned too much I have to go and do some homework.... arghh! Tell me, why am I in school again…yeah I know so I can get a good degree and a good job and have loads of money! If only it was that simple!

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Truth versus lies

Hey guys! long time.I've been really busy with school work and stuff.This A level is work oh! but I'm ready to stick it out.

Last week I caught the "I want a boyfriend" bug that was floating around in school. At first I was like Why are all these stupid girls moaning about wanting a boy friend, then it hit. The love sick couples holding hands and kissing everywhere get to you. At first it was very irritating( it still is) but after a while you start thinking " oh! I wish I could have that". Anyways, so I joined the I want a boyfriend team. All the other girls had a guy they fancied, but I didnt( well I have one but its very complicated so I might as well just forget it)so I wanted a boyfriend and I couldn't have one, not while I was in this school! So I just had to get over it. One of my very serious friends who I didn't khnow was in our "I want aboyfriend team" had a guy she liked. He's actually the guy half of the school girls like, he is fine but apart from that I don't know what they see in him. The guy is a well known player. My dear friend knew his reputation, it was even a topic of discussion in their family cuz both her parents knew him and thought the same of him, but she was falling hard and fast. They had been emailing each other for a while and the guy was kinda hinting that he liked her.She confronted him bout his player ways and the guy gave one very touching story that he wasn't what she thought he was and said that she was his dream girl in pry school(cuz they went to the same primary school)and all that very soppy stuff

This kind of situation is very difficult, you know the facts in your mind already, that the guy is a player but one part of you wants to believe him, wants to believe that even if he was, he'll be different to you. You know, just like in the movies, the bad guy meets this girl and completely changes because of her.Even if you know that he's probaly lying , the idea of that romance, makes you believe it.This was the dilenma, me being the romantic that I am was, kept urging my friend to belive him and give it a chance.

The problem was that this guys ex, Who is my friend's friend(lets call my friend Bibi)told bibi that she still likes the guy. Ex had a party last week and guy was there.There was a rumour that the two hit it off, bibi asked guy about it and he denied it.Guy, probably didn't know that Ex and Bibi used to talk, so one day bibi and ex were talking and katakata burst.Ex said that guy and her kissed and all and bibi told her her own story.As thay were talking now,guy was coming and immediately he saw the two of them together he ran away.

I know this isn't a very serious situation,its not like he was going out with any of them but the thing is how do you know when guys are lying. It's like their lies always seem more like the truth and their truths more like lies.The line betwen lies and truths becomes so blurred that you don't see it anymore. Seriously, its a matter of God help us! Only God can help us.I think I've gotten rid of the "I want a boyfriend bug" but its still lingering somewhere there.All the fantasies still lurking behind the common sense.Waiting for the next guy that will make them reappear. As for now they're tucked safely away.

Monday, October 23, 2006

The emancipation of my mind

Hi everyone! the thought of coming back home for half-term was all that was on my mind about a week ago, right now I'm thinking " I'm so freakin tired of this house I wanna go back to school!" Yesterday, I was looking forward to meeting my friends in church and getting into some holy spirit groove. Needless to say, I was quite dissapointed, I just didn't get the same high I normally get from going to church. I guess it's more to do with me than with the church.

Right now, I'm trying to get(my mum's trying to get) a ticket to lagos for this christmas and its so freakin expensive!I hope I still get to go.

On to someting entirely different, I am a very complicated person. Oh so complicated, sometimes I myself don't believe the stuff that goes on in my head but the thing is this complication does not go outside my mind it just stays in there. I have built this wall around myself, no one can get into my mind because if you know what I know, if you know all what I've been through, if you know what I think , you might think I'm wierd or you might pity me or you might just never talk to me. I'm just so scared to let anyone in and I've done this for so long that now I fear that no one knows me at all. When I come to think of it no one really knows me at all even the close friends that I have, most of the time I'm quiet. So everyone thinks I'm just quiet but they don't know that I have so many words I wanna say but they just won't come out and I just end up just doing surface talking about things that don't really matter or concentrating on every other person. I'm just living, breathing, walking, talking because i have to. All my passions, wants, fears are hidden so deep inside me that most of the time they don't exist. And now, I'm tired of being this person that I'm not or rather of not being the person that I really am. Everything I have stored is now eating me up inside. I want to let go of all the inhibitions I've placed on myself. I have enough things to blame for my closing up but what's the point, I'll just be a victim of life and that's what I don't want to be, a victim. I will not be pitied. I, am responsible for whatever I become, not my circumstances, I am responsible for my life not the people around me. It might be hard but I'll take it step by step, not being afraid to be me.

Okay, before your mind starts doing 360, I am not a lesbo ok?!Its just other stuff bout me that peeps don't know. I hate acknowledging the bitter parts of my life, it's just that sometimes they come up and it's stuff that nobody knows I've been through or I still go through so there's no one to talk to it about and I just have to let it out somewhere. Thank God for anonymity in the blog world.

Y'all have a safe week. Bless!

Sunday, October 15, 2006


Hey everyone! I've been quite busy in skool so I haven't really had time to blog. Yesterday we had socials and it was half crap- half alrite, we were actually dancing to YMCA I mean... but it was quite fun watching all the drunk people perform. There was this particular girl, her boyfriend broke up with her like 2 weeks ago because she slept with another guy when she was drunk. Anyways, so yesterday, the girl now got drunk and started begging the boyfiend to dance with her, he refused cuz as at now he hates her, then she started shouting and punching the guy and begging at the same time. As if that was not enough madness for one night, she pulled off her top on the dance floor. I just couldn't help laughing!
Nyways, I've been seeing the reviews on the Thisday show and I'm so sad I wasn't in Naija for it but it's not like if I was in Naija I would have gotten the 25k to pay but at least I would have felt their effect more.
Thanks for the comments on my last post, though I can't publish them on my blog something was wrong but I've fixed it now for future comments.
Last week, we had to write on somebody we admired, dead or alive, that had affected the society in a good way, singers, politicians whatever and present it to the class.I didn't get to give the presentation but I was gonna talk about Bono. I think he's really wonderful. I'm not so into his music (although its really good) but I think what he's done with the live8 thing is amazing. He's so selfless and very determined to help these poor countries have a better life and he's done it not just by asking for donations and all that but through his talent music.
So if you guys had to write on the same topic, who would you write about and why? I would like to know!thanks
That's all folks till next time. Hasta la bista!

Sunday, September 24, 2006

I can't be bothered to think of a title

Hope you guys had a nice weekend, cuz I did. I went to watch Children of Men in the cinema and it was really cool although it was sad, it was a really good movie. It was quite a scary illustration of the future with all women being infertile and london being as horrible as that!
On to something else, I,ve been thinking about somethings. what do you guys think is the right age to start dating? I have my own views on this and I think the right age is 16( this is not becos i'm sixteen too). Some of you are probably thinking "SIXTEEN no way! how can you start dating at sixteen?" well, what age did you start dating? huh? and by dating I don't mean actually sleeping with a guy. Which brings me to another question , can a guy and a girl "go out together" without actually sleeping together?

Also what are your views on inter-racial dating? (I'm hoping thats what its called). Personally, actually no, theoretically, I think its alright but practically i don't know if I would ever. There's this german guy in my school that I kind of fancy but the only problem is he's german. I know this sounds racist but I guess its the way I was brought up. Not that my parents are racist, they actually have friends from lots of places and I also have lots of freinds from other backgrounds but thats freindship not an actual relationship. My mother would probably go bonkers if in future I decide to marry an ibo man (which is very likely considering the fact that Lemar has Ibo roots).

In secondary school most of my Ibo friends didn't mind marrying Yoruba men but most Yoruba girls didnt think they would marry outside their tribe? I dont know about hausas cuz I had only one hausa friend, who was practically yoruba, and she was open to all tribes. So does our culture influence our choices or is it just individual differences?

I know my questions are kinda wierd but I just want to know what people think about such stuff.

One more thing, this week we were having a class and we were talking about the Richest and the poorest countries in terms of GNP per person. One chinese guy actually had the guts to say Nigeria was one of the poorest countries! I had to give the guy some education on Nigeria. Thankfully the teacher agreed with me that Nigeria is definitely not one of the poorest countries. One of my classmates actually asked me if we lived in normal houses or huts in Nigeria! I keep explaining to these people that Nigeria is not a jungle and although its not as developed or as economically stable as Britain it's not as bad as they think. I don't really blame them anyway cuz the only pictures they ever see of the place are filled with hungry looking children and dirty roads. I wonder why no one ever shows them the nice parts of Nigeria but then again wouldn't we just be fooling ourselves if we only showed the nice parts and totally forgot about the horrible parts and the poor people.
Anyhoo, you guys have a nice week and please leave your comments!Ciao!

Saturday, September 09, 2006

A whole new world

Wow, its been such a long time! I've been so busy, I just started school in a boarding house somewhere in the country in the north west of England, and it's been awesome.

Before I left, I though it was going to be horrible, I kept worrying about how I was going to survive. I had to live in the same house with white people for almost a year, which i thought would be very uncomfortable, I had to eat nothing but disgusting british food, i would be cut off from the modern city life of london and the shops i had grown to love. Oh!, it was unbearable to think about. I kept begging my mother not to let me go but she kept on telling me that I would be alright and that I was just being silly.

Anyway, on the set date my mother dragged me along to the school and dumped me there (ok.., she didn't dump me there, she was actually reluctant to leave) . So, there I was all on my own in this new strange place. Until I found out that my room mate was not only a nigerian but MY SECOND COUSIN! and that they were also two other nigerian guys there. I actually went to the same school as one of them for a year and my sister knows the other one. Plus the food isn't all that bad, although it takes a bit of adjusting to but its not bad at all. To add more icing on the cake, today we actually got to visit the nearby town of lancaster and I was reunited with most of my shops.

So, so far its been really far from the horrible experience i was thinking it would be , the people have been really nice and I've started getting comfortable and I'm hoping it stays this way. In a way I'm so happy I came down here cuz it gives me an opportunity to experience a totally different world and so many things I would never have done ordinarilly and I might actually come out a better person. I almost let the fear of being in a place stop me from experiencing wonderful things. So, from now on I've decided to always be ready to explore new horizons if somebody else has done it, you can do it too!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Free songs

I am now faced with the dilemma of where to get songs to download. This wasn't a problem before, as I was a major dealer in limewire and the rest until some one told me it was illegal. Well, I'm not totally convinced because it's so easy and it's FREE, tell me, what wrong with that!
Anyway, even if I don't totally agree, the person has made me aware that it might be wrong. As a result every time I want to download some songs, my conscience doesn't allow me because I begin to remember all the stupid things the guy was saying about robbing artists of their money and that as I want to become an artist myself in future, I shouldn't do that else people will also rob me. I mean puleease!, those guys already have so much money , they wouldn't mind if they got robbed off of just a few dollars...Plus if I was as rich as those guys, I wouldn't mind too!

Despite my arguments , I still can't get to downloading the songs (I don't know the kind of mashmallow conscience I have!) so now I'm looking for an alternative way to get my songs but what do you guys think, is it really wrong?

Onto something else, I just found out about this really cool gospel group called four kornrez. They are four Nigerian brothers (brothers.. asin of the same father) Deji, TJ, Vidal and Daniel(check them out in the pic above...aren't they cute, that's just by the way) who grew up in Lagos but later moved to London. I've only heard one of their songs called "yes I know" and I was able to download it for free (they were giving it out, I didn't steal from them) and I loved it. They have this jazzy modern fresh sound, you can listen to a sample of their songs on their website or their myspace page(where they were giving the free download, Hurry you might still be able to get it!)here's the link free download.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Tacky lines or worse... stalkers!

It's so annoying when guys come up to you on the road and ask " can you be my girlfriend?" or start confessing undying love, I mean plsss, the day before you didn't even know I existed and the next day You're in love with me! How stupid can guys be?

So yesterday I went out to do some shopping with one of my friends. She just moved with her sis into a new flat and she wanted to get some household stuff. As we were going into one of the shops, I noticed two guys also entered the shop with us. We bought some things there and left the shop. As we were going into the next shop, one of the guys said hi and kept going so I just thought he mistook me for someone else. When we entered the next shop the same guys came in behind us. Coincidence right?.... Yeah, that's what my friend and I were saying until the same guys followed us out of the shop and to the bus stop.

That was when I started getting scared, It's not normal for two black guys dressed like hooligans to be following you about in London. All the stories I'd heard about people being killed by the roadside for no apparent reason, started haunting me. We kept waiting for them to get into one of the buses that kept coming but they didn't. The stupid bus we were supposed to take was wasting time and the guys were still standing there.

We now started planning our escape route. We were going to jump on the next bus that came and when the guys get on the bus we would quickly get out of the bus through the other door. Ha! Writing the plan makes it look stupid but at the time it was the best we could come up with. Unfortunately or fortunately for us the next bus that came was the one we had been waiting for , so we just fashied the plan and told ourselves that it was daylight, the couldn't do anything to us in full view of everyone and that we were probably just exaggerating they weren't following us.

Lo and behold the guys followed us into the bus and sat down right at the back of us! It was not funny at all because me and my friend could not even talk of what to do again because they would hear us , I tried speaking to her in yoruba but she reminded me that they might be Nigerians. So we sat there laughing about our situation but not talking about it, we decided to talk about other things like "LAST PRAYERS!".

We were almost at our destination when one of the guys tapped me and said "hello", I didn't know whether to laugh or cry but instead I just smiled at the guy. Next thing he said was " Immediately I saw your pretty face, I knew today was my birthday, that's why I've been following you" My friend and I just started laughing, from relief but mostly because of the two stupid guys. They must have been very jobless. Luckily for us we were getting down at the next stop so we just ran out of the bus.

I mean what planet are these guys from, it's one thing to use very stupid chat up lines and it's entirely another thing to scare the hell out of some one and use stupid chat up lines.

Friday, July 14, 2006

Ego le

I know I should blog more often but mehn it's almost impossible to. I always have so many things to do and believe blogging is always the furthest thing from now. But, hopefully all that will Change now cuz school's gone out for the summer. Although I've been feeling a bit down lately, the fact that I don't have to get up at 6:30 anymore and endure the stupid remarks from my teacher, is enough to lift my spirits.

Anyways, right now things are not that interesting. Everyone's traveling for summer and I'm desperately looking for a job. Mehn, this job hunt thing is very annoying in London oh!I've dropped about thirty c.v's in even some stores whose names I can't remember. I started this job hunt about two weeks ago, so that I could get a headstart before all the desperate people who had run out of money and were ready to take on a extra part-time summer job.
The job thing is really depressing me because I really need cash. I'm (by God's grace) going to Lagos this Christmas and I can't go empty handed. All my family members (some of who I've not spoken to in the past year I've been in London) will come barging into my house demanding their Christmas gifts. The thing is I just can't turn them away empty handed because I used to do the same thing back then! SO, to do this I have to get money and to get money I need a job(or do u have any other brilliant ideas on how to get money!) and time is running out( u know time is money now!). I only have this summer break to get a job cuz after that it's back to school. It's at times like this I wish my father was a billionaire.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

There is hope!

I was very suprised when i saw a picture of John legend with a naija nodel called Tayo Otiti on someone's blog. The first thing that came to my mind was "All the way". It would have been a different thing if it was someone like Oluch onweagba he was going out with but to hear he's going out with a Nigerian who's not been in the limelight before! Anyways, thats really good for them. Although I like John Legend , i don't love him enough to be jealous of her instead she gives me hope.
For years, I've been announcing to the whole world that I am in love with Lemar Obika . Sure they all laugh at me and I really just say it for jokes but mehn! I really love that bloke. I had his poster in my locker in secondary school and every morning , I would look at it before going to class and send him a kiss. I also have this friend who also loves Lemar so we' were always claiming him publicly and all fighting for his love that was never there. One time I heard he was performing in marks and spencer for their anniversary and it was free. I was so happy, my friend and I jumped on the bus and we were so happy on the way imagining all the things we would do or say if we saw him. Ha! all for us to get there and for them to tell us he had gone already. Mehn! that was such a joke, I was so devasted. I couln't face going home and getting laughed at with remarks such as " After all the noise you were making "( and believe me we made a lot of noise about it) . So, till this day both our families think we saw Lemar for real and that we spoke to him.
So as I was saying this John legend and Tayo story gives me hope that one day it'll hit the newstands that "Lemar is going out with a naija model"(The model being me). It'll just be like a deja vu. The same story but with different characters.( don't you dare say dream on sista )
Talking about deja vu, have you guys heard Beyonce's new song with Jay-z called deja vu. The song is hot. That's now my favourite song (for this week anyway,Ill have a new one next week). Anyways, I've got to get ready for school tommorow (aarrgh!) so bye.

Friday, June 16, 2006


Wish my head was this clear
My mind is going through a dejunking process right now. This is because lately my thoughts have been filled with so many things. There always so many emotions, memories, plans, worries going through my head. And now I'm almost drowning in them and I barely have space to think about other things. Since my thoughts were so clouded, I couldn't think straight when it came to important things like God, school and all the other things i was supposed to be thinking about. I just couldn't get my priorities straight. I really miss those days when i didn't think about anything, when I never had trouble sleeping because my head was brimming with thoughts , I only thought when I needed to say something or I was trying to remember stuff during exams or when I had to call the coming week's hairstyle. So I decided I was going to stop thinking. But how can I? So I decided I was just gonna reduce the things I thought about and clear my mind to give it enough space to think clearly about the things I ought to. So my main prorities are
1.God,establishing and maintaining a relationship with him
2. School, to continue to learn everything that i can and excel in this area
3. Myself, taking care of myself and making sure I always keep a clear head to be able to plan for my future
Mostly, i just want to live life to my satisfaction and get the best out of it so that I don't have any regrets later and I can't do this without a clear head. If I keep thinking about things I want to do but never do them, my thoughts are just a waste of time. It's better to go out and do them rather than just thinking about it. Moreover, if I think too much I will just kill myself and believe me, I'm not ready to die. So here's to a long life with a clear head!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

So little yet so much

Like her I can't resist the windows

These days, I find myself wanting almost everything I see and I can't help but see! This is because on my way to and from school, I have to go through the shopping mall and once I see the beautiful displays, I'm like a zombie. I have to go in and check out the store. You're probably thinking that once I get in, I'm going to spend all my life savings or at least come out with a thing or two. But thats were you're wrong, I barely spend a penny.
Why? because I've got no cash to spend. I,ve got no job and I don't get ema(education maintenance allowance) from school. How do I survive? Basicaly I rely on small change from my many uncles and aunties and money from my mum only when a member of my family goes to lagos, Nigeria. Sadly, my source of income has been going down lately. When I first arrived in london, only last year, my family members were very generous and were always blessing me with money. This was because they hadn't seen my face in a long while and since i was just coming from Nigeria, they wanted to feel like big london aunties and uncles. Now, after about 10 months of seeing my face, it has lost its effect on them and now that I have become one of them that is a london gal, they don't have to feel big anymore. So as my face becomes more familiar, the money i recieve reduces.
The little money i get is spent on transport and other very basic things. It's not like I really need money, i just want to buy clothes and shoes and make up and basically anything that catches my eye. So now i have started looking for a job(against my mum's wish, she doesn't think i need any money apart from what I get from her. Ha!) so i can satisfy my ojukokoro (greedy) eyes.

Friday, June 09, 2006

Good looks

Everybody wants to look good, they wanna have Jessica alba's face on jlo body. Because their is so much pressure to be beautiful, so every one tries to hide their imperfections and become these beautiful people. While it's a good thing to be beautiful, the truth is not everybody can be Jessica alba and Jennifer Lopez at the same time .We all think that if we had a prettier face, life would be better or we would have more friends or if we weren't so fat, we wouldn't feel insecure, or will be able to have the confidence we need. True, a pretty
face will attract more friends but if you were insecure when you were ugly you'll be insecure when you're beautiful, if you want to have friends, go out and make them yourself don't wait for your pretty face to attract them to you. Once you feel beautiful on the inside you can do even more than what a pretty person can do. If you felt beautiful on the inside you wouldn't be afraid to walk in a room and be the centre of attention because your mind wouldn't be dwelling on how many wrinkles or spots you have on your face it' ll be dwelling on how your beautiful inside can touch the people around you.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Da vinci's code

  1. You should see the amount of people carrying this Da Vinci code book ,written by Dan Brown, reading it on the trains and on the bus! At first, I thought it was just another good book I had to read but then I started hearing stuff about the book. I heard it was a book that blasphemed Jesus and portrayed him as a liar. So, as a good Christian, I decided that I was not going to read it because number 1. It was anti-Christian and
    2. It might make me question my beliefs.
    I also decided I was going to write about it on this blog, to try and discourage people from reading or watching it. But I later discovered, through an article from the outflow magazine by Jesus house, that the book didn't actually portray Jesus in a bad light. It said Jesus was married to Mary Magdalene and they had children, it didn't say they had an affair or they had children out of wedlock. Rather it shows the catholic church in a bad light. According to the book, the catholic church is guilty of hiding "the true Jesus" from us, it claims that the Catholics concealed this secret to undermine the role of women in the church. But how do we know the Jesus portrayed in the book is indeed true?
    Well, that's left for you to decide. Really, the only people who should be worried are the heads of the catholic church, because the book (if right) means they have been lying to the world and believe me they are worried because they have called a fast till death as a protest for the movie not to be released. This leaves me wondering what are they really fighting for? Are they really hiding something?Because the book doesn,t really pose a threat to Christianity,the main thing is that neither theory denies that he(Jesus) died to save us and that is what really matters. Jesus being married with kids doesn't make his death less of a sacrifice or his life less holy. Whichever way, are you going to believe a fiction based novel written by one guy like that called Dan brown, who probably just thought writing this sort of story will bring him loads of money or a 2,000 year old story proven to be true and supported by the scriptures?

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

What am I doing here!

Ok, I have to admit I'm getting the jitters. I've been going through most of the blogs and it's scary.Most of the blogs I've seen are written by people in their 2o's and 30's talking about work, men and just generally older peoples stuff. Plus my writing skills are just developing (although it has made me to start thinking "maybe I should become a journalist").This is making me think "is it just me or am I just totally inappropriate for this blogging stuff?" Don't get me wrong I'm not going to stop instead I'm more challenged to make it work but I'm thinking who am I going to make it work for. I mean, if I post really intersting stuff everyday and there is no audience, what's the use! In short, am I sure somebody is reading this!
Now, I don't want to sound too whiny(who are you kidding?),I know I might come across as a confused teenager but hey! can you blame me. I'm still trying to figure out who I am in this ever changing world. I just hope there is a teenage audience in blogosphere or infact any one who can relate to the things i'm going to be writing if not...... let's not go there yet.For now,I'll just keeping writing in as good and as frequently as I can.